Rain and Sky

I hate the rain and I love the sky.

This two things are always what I always wanted. I mean even if I hate the rain I always like it. While making this article, I am looking at the window and I can see the sky and I think it's going to rain today.

I always want the sky. It is always there. When I want to see it, I just look at it and when I don't, I just don't look at it. Just as simple. Everytime I look at the sky, I always remember Jontin. Yup, it's Jontin. The first article I had with his name. I call him Jontin even if his real nickname is Jonti. I'm used to it so it will never change.

Back to the sky. I really really love the sky. Today, I realized that I always look at it everytime I'm sad but just like Jontin's smile, the sky makes me happy everytime I'm sad.

Rain. Ever since I was in high school, I always love the rain. Being wet in the rain and walking while raining makes me happy. I had this thought in my mind that I'm always attached to the rain. Maybe it's because this few months it's been raining always.

I always remember the days I had in high school. Rain made me really happy that time. I don't know why but rain is always there when I am crying. I mean, when I cry there is a rain.

One special thing I think why I really love in the rain is that when I'm wet in the rain I feel clean. It's so cold but still I'm like a child jumping. When I'm sad and it's raining I always wet myself with it. I mean I don't bring umbrella all the time even if I know that it will rain in the afternoon.

Now I hate the rain. I hate it because everytime is raining, I remember Jontin. It makes me so sad. I want to cry everytime there it's raining. I've been too attached with him like the rain. Maybe because I remember his smile when it's raining.

I hate the rain because I like him. I like the sky because it reminds me of him. I like him so much. I have to wait. I hope I can. I mean I've always been waiting for someone so maybe I can wait.

If it rains today, even if it rains at night, I'll go and wet myself with it. I want to cry. I've always been crying. I hope it rains.