I thought he's My bestfriend!!!

Now this blog is about my bestfriend's brother whom I thought is my bestfriend. I thought he's my bestfriend but he's just my Pizza now.

He can't be my bestfriend and I'm sad about it. Why? Because I like him. He can't be my friend. I'm afraid that he'll leave me when he knows that I like him. I really am but now even if he does not know it he left. I mean he's still there but it seems like when I'm near him I don't exist.

It hurts my feelings because I tried to be close to him but he's oing away. I know it's because of what I did. I hope he forgives me already. I really miss him. I miss him terribly. Terribly that I can't focus on school. I can still but on vacant periods my mind is out on him. I only think if he already forgave me.

I've been such a fool. If I only remained the same like what we are 2 weeks ago.

Now I really miss him. That's all I can say I miss him. Everytime in school when I heard of things that he usually says I get lost because I remember him. I always listen to music and when I am hearing songs he plays or songs he knows I again gets lost because of him.

I hate myself. I hate him. I hate him because I like him so much. That he's like everything to me. I mean I always remember and him and when I do I miss him.

I saw his image everywhere. haha. I'm very weird these days. well. Too bad for me because I lost my friend. You can see from my articles I remove the words bestfriend when I'm talking about him because I lost him already.

But I still believe that he will return to the same person I know someday. I am praying for that day to come. I am praying for us. I am praying that God will give me patience and give my ex-bestfriend a heart of forgiveness. I am praying for the two of us.