July 31

Today is July 31. The last day of July. I really don't know what to write today. I mean I have plenty of things to write but I have few minutes left because my sister will use the PC.

I had plenty of things that happened to me this month. I got my first achievement in College. What is it? I got perfect score on my Preliminary Exam in Chemistry and I got the highest scores in other subjects. My quizzes are high. I recite always.

My studying life is ok but there's something missing. That something is that someone and that someone is not always present PHYSICALLY in my life for this month.

He's always not around and I got this idea that I should be used to it because he's not always gonna be there. But even though he's not near, I just think of him and everything's alright. Except that sometimes when I remember him, I can't stop the tears falling on my eyes.

Another thing that happened to me this day is that I got a chance to share God's word to my classmates. I shared what my experiences I had and how God helped me through my problems, in school and in hoping for Pizza's love.

I really miss Pizza. I hope he still remember me. I mean even if he's not talking to me anymore, I hope he thinks of me. I don't want to interrupt him anymore. He's so busy in school and I'm worried about his health but I know that he'll be having a nice life. I'm praying for him.

Things changed my outlook this month. I started to do my best in getting good grades for my future. I started to have a smile in things that I do. I started to have a good view of my life and I don't think of things that will make me sad. Everytime that something bad happens to me, I just smile and laugh at my mistakes. I'm different now. Different from what I'm used to be.

I hope August will be alright. I hope I'll have a good and new life this month. Few weeks left and I'll be having my birthday and I hope when that time comes I'm the new Jan.

July 2008

This whole month I've been so sad. Maybe I was a little bit happy but most of the memories of July is sad. I had plenty of things that made me sad but I believe that even if I'm sad for this whole month August will be better.

I won't forget July 2008. I had plenty of articles this month.

wahaha.....

Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me

Books and a Walk

I'll introduce first how I bought a book today.

Before writing the article Rain and Sky, I watched a movie entitled Madeleine. That movie reminded me about the importance of books that's why I decided to buy a book after watching that movie and writing my article.

I turned off the PC and changed my clothes and put in my jogging pants, sleeves and my black jacket. I changed my necklace to the one with many charms and left the house.

There's no tricycle so I decided to walk from our house up to the highway. I enjoyed it becuase it's cold and I just thought that it will make me thin. haha. After walking and enjoying the scenes of a cloudy and dark afternoon, I rode on a jeepney and went to National Bookstore.

When I arrived to the National Bookstore, I went excitedly to the books section. I tried to find the book I'm really craving for. The title of it is Happiness Now but I also like Being Happy and Happiness in a Nutshell. The author is Andrew Matthews. I really enjoyed scanning that book last May. I was so sad that day when I decided to leave home and go to SM North Edsa, a mall here in the Philippines, I was really crying that day and my eyes are worn out but when I arrived at the National Bookstore in SM North Edsa last May I encountered this two books. It's about how life can be happy by doing simple things. I didn't find it so I searched for novels about love but I find it boring. I went to the teen section but all I saw was stories about life and I don't enjoy it. Why? Because every book in the teens section is about dating and it sucks.

I don't like novels about teens love life and I don't like classic novels too. I don't enjoy reading books with small letters, brown paper pages and soft bounds. I enjoy books which are colored, have pictures in it and short or long stories that can inspire me.

I went to the spiritual section and I found books that touches life because of God. I picked plenty and decided which one to buy. I saw Footprints in the sand for Teens but I don't enjoy it anymore. When I was still in High School, I want to buy that book but now I decided not to.

I bought a book entitled, What Matters Most for Teens. It does not have any authors but it's about wisdom and inspiration for the important issues in life like when you fall in love, patience, trusting to God, problems and so on. When I touched it, I knew it was for me so I didn't let go of it.

I'm not satisfied to one book so I searched for another again. Too bad I saw the book that I've been craving for 3 months. The book I'm saying is Happiness Now. I really like that book but still God first so I left it and said to myself that one of these days I'll come back to that bookstore and buy it. I hope this week I can have it.

After paying for my new book, I looked at the window and it's already dark. I don't know how long I've been in that bookstore but that made me happy coz I find the book I'm craving for. I know that book since May and I'm looking for it in every bookstore but now that I found it, I will really save my money for that.

I went home again by riding a jeepney and because it's cold I decided to walk again. I find my way so good because of the overlooking view of the city. I looked at the lights and I felt the cold breeze of the wind.

After writing these article I will read my new book and I promise I will share what I had read today. So Bye for now....^_^

I wish somebody will give me that book I'm craving for but if no one will I will really save my money for it.

Rain and Sky

I hate the rain and I love the sky.

This two things are always what I always wanted. I mean even if I hate the rain I always like it. While making this article, I am looking at the window and I can see the sky and I think it's going to rain today.

I always want the sky. It is always there. When I want to see it, I just look at it and when I don't, I just don't look at it. Just as simple. Everytime I look at the sky, I always remember Jontin. Yup, it's Jontin. The first article I had with his name. I call him Jontin even if his real nickname is Jonti. I'm used to it so it will never change.

Back to the sky. I really really love the sky. Today, I realized that I always look at it everytime I'm sad but just like Jontin's smile, the sky makes me happy everytime I'm sad.

Rain. Ever since I was in high school, I always love the rain. Being wet in the rain and walking while raining makes me happy. I had this thought in my mind that I'm always attached to the rain. Maybe it's because this few months it's been raining always.

I always remember the days I had in high school. Rain made me really happy that time. I don't know why but rain is always there when I am crying. I mean, when I cry there is a rain.

One special thing I think why I really love in the rain is that when I'm wet in the rain I feel clean. It's so cold but still I'm like a child jumping. When I'm sad and it's raining I always wet myself with it. I mean I don't bring umbrella all the time even if I know that it will rain in the afternoon.

Now I hate the rain. I hate it because everytime is raining, I remember Jontin. It makes me so sad. I want to cry everytime there it's raining. I've been too attached with him like the rain. Maybe because I remember his smile when it's raining.

I hate the rain because I like him. I like the sky because it reminds me of him. I like him so much. I have to wait. I hope I can. I mean I've always been waiting for someone so maybe I can wait.

If it rains today, even if it rains at night, I'll go and wet myself with it. I want to cry. I've always been crying. I hope it rains.

JAN means . . .

Haha. We had a seminar this day. Me and my churchmates went to Salt and Light. We registered our name and I decided to use Jan as my name. On school too, my name is Jan. I mean they call me Jan.

My churchmates wondered why I used Jan and I laughed because they didn't know that my real name is Nanette Jan. It's been two months since they know me but they don't know my real name. Haha

Then, on the afternoon, my bestfriend and Vince asked me about my name. They saw my nameplate, Jan, and asked why I used Jan. I said to Vince that my real name is Nanette Jan but on my bestfriend, haha, I told him the real reason. I wrote it on my palm and until now it is written on my palm. Haha. Only he knows the answer about my name.

JAN...haha...JAN...I really love my name. In high school, my friends, classmates and teachers call me Nanette but now that I'm in high school, I am using my name Jan. So the professor, classmates and friends I had calls me Jan.

Hmmm actually Jan means....J___ and Nanette. haha. I can't tell the name because he might be reading this. I hope so. So that everything I wrote on every article I have will be known by him. I mean so that he will know that I like him so mu7ch and so that he will understand the real me. Why? Because in this blog you will know everything about me. My attitudes, my like, what I hate and everything and especially why I like him so much.

So in short JAN means

J____ And Nanette

wahaha

Saturday Afternoon

Wahaha...It's a very different Saturday afternoon I had. It's been two months since that rainy Saturday night and I again was reached by the rain today.

While going home it rained so hard and I saw the Rural Bank of Cainta. This time it's too different. Why? It's because he's not beside me anymore. The funny thing is I have an umbrella today. Unlike that night. Haha

Things that makes Me happy

While waiting for our teacher this morning, I wrote in my little blue notebook what I'm thinking. The first thing that came to my mind is writing about things that makes me happy.

There are a lot of things that makes me happy. Most of them are because of the nature and some is because of my friends.

Here are lists of things that makes my world happy:

• glimpse of a rainbow
• eating choco mucho, Hazelnut Cadbury, dougnut, chocolate sundae, Cholate Mousse Cake and anything that has chocolates and strawberries
• drinking strawberry flavored zagu with chocolate and crystal add-ons
• walking in our subdivision in the afternoon with a view of the city
  
• watching the sunset
• peep of the stars and moon
• watching meteor shower (i love meteor shower but it is very timely)
• counting the stars
• being blown by the wind
• watching raindrops while drinking cold coffee
• hearing my favorite songs
  
• watching my favorite movies
• remembering my high school life, the PORLAB, my school, and funny moments I had
• thinking about mistakes I had,
• Being with Pizza
• Talking with Pizza
• simple things that reminds me of Pizza
• hearing Pizza's voice
• glimpse of Pizza's smile, Pizza's laugh and him being happy
• Lastly believeing, hoping and thinking that someday Pizza will like me too.

See there are a lot of things that makes me happy and most of them is about the stars.

Another is Pizza. Hmmmm..It's because he is very special to me. One thing that really, really makes me happy is when I see pizza smiling.


I don't know why I'm so happy when I see him smiling. Maybe it's because he looks serious but when he smiles I can see his gentle side. I mean I can see him smiling rarely and I really like to see him smile always.

There is really something about his smile and I don't know what that is. I will never forget his smile. I mean his smile is always going to be on my mind everyday.

One wish I want is to see Pizza always smiling and I wish that he is smiling because of me but I don't think I can make him smile. I mean I hope so.

If ever Pizza will read this article, I hope that when I see him again he will smile back at me always. Haha. If he could just smile forever..haha..just kidding.

I hope I can always make you smile.

I really wish that he will always smile. Haha. This article is about him again. Haha...I think the right title for this is..

Something about Pizza's Smile

Goodbye High School

High school is one big soap opera`'
everyone is gossiping about everyone else
& at the end of the day, you wonder
what's going to happen tomorrow. <3`'

WELCOME TO HIGH SCHOOL.

too much drama up in this fake
hearted school. The preps; the Goths;
the less-than-cool. where it starts & stops;
who's to define? Who’s to be trusted &
where to draw the line? screaming &
crying & all the useless chatter. You live;
you die; only life is what matters...
Filled with smiles, lies, & fears...
Welcome to the magic of HiGH SCH00L YEARS...

Welcome to a world where everyone talks about each other.
Everyone lies. Everyone tries to be something they're not.
Nobody can keep a secret for their life & friendships that
have lasted years are broken. Believe it or not, this world
actually exists. It goes by the name of high school.

People say high school is about getting an education
and getting into a good college to succeed in life.
Well, to me, highschool is about making memories
and good times that will last forever <3

& after four years ; i believe
high school is where you find yourself..

PORLAB's home

When I was in first year high school, I really follow my school's rules and regulations. Our school was very loving and really helped me a lot.

When I was in second year high school, haha, we started to call it THE EVIL FORTRESS. My seatmates, Kerith, Jetjet, Fev, Karen, Ruzzel, draws pictures of our school being eaten by the dragon. I really love their drawings. It shows our directress punishing students that is not in 2x3 haircut. My classmates really hates 2x3 haircut and they always make something to stop the 2x3 haircut but until our graduation they didn't win. haha.

I really miss my school. I remember the back of our school stage where we always make our reports. We used to go there and have our break time there even if it was prohibited. We even made our candle and wine project on that place so when you go there you can still see the wax that was left on the floor. You can also see the pastel, marker and color scars that was left on the tiles of our school because on that place we used to make our projects and reports.

I also remember the comfort room of my school. On that place many of us cried and one of them is me. I used to go there with my friend just to cry. I remember that place always because when we are in still in 2nd and 3rd year we always go home late and we tell ghost stories about that comfort room.

The AVR or Audio-Visual Room where we used to watch movies and that is where we made our last project which is our Business Meeting. We made bloody scripts and we looked for suits and formal dresses for us to wear. Even if it is raining we had our practice and especially I love the moments when we used to take pictures and instead of practicing we watched "A Walk to Remember" where my groupmates and their CEO(me) cried.

Our homerooms where different plays and skits happened. Our recitation, exams, quizzes, reports, fighting with teachers. I remember them all. I miss the teachers that we sent out of our room because we are so noisy.

I remember everything. Oh I can't forget the UST in our school or Under the Sampaloc Tree. My section used to stay there everytime that our school have a program.

I have so much memories in that school. I really miss it but after getting our diplomas I still haven't return to my school. I wanted to but I'm shy.

I miss my acting mommy there. The cashier. I also miss my advisers, my teachers especially Mrs. Carig and Mrs. Frias.

I miss my accounting, computer, biology, mapeh, t.l.e., chemistry, physics, gen. sci, math, filipio, e.p., ap. wahaha..everything. I can't forget everything.

Now everything is so different. My classmates, my teachers, my batchmates. We all have a different lives now. We don't have to wake up so early this time and my classmates don't have to follow the 2x3 haircut rules. They don't need to draw dragons, the directress, our adviser, everything. We don't have to wear hairnet on our p.e. We don't have to rush our reports at the backstage. We don't need to buy things from our school supply in the canteen. We can now use mirrors, brush our hairs, put powder anywhere.

I really miss my school. I want to visit it. I really want to but I want to go there with my PORLAB. I really miss everything. College is too different from high school.

Shooting Stars

I remembered that night. It was 10 pm and I forgot the date already but it happened this year.

I was already in bed but I heard my sister and she said they are going to watch for falling stars. Then I decided to not sleep.

I had 16 stars. I'm happy that night for I saw falling stars.

I hope I'm like a star. It dies when light is already gone. Like me, I'll die f love is gone. Forever.

I'm weird. I like you. I like you. I like you.

Like a rainbow, like a pizza, like a star, like a rain, like a cloud, like a heart, like a song, like everything that reminds me of you. I like you so much. I can't let you go now but I'll wait for the perfect time like what I'm doing right now. And I will always pray for the two of us even if it's only me believing for a love that will happen someday.

I will and always will hope, wait, trust and love for you. You will be my inspiration. Thanks for giving me hope.

I like you so much. Like what I said:

You are born for me. I waited for 193 days before you were born. I'm 193 days older than you because I was born to wait for you. You live to make me happy, sad and something. I believe. I'll always will.

There's no connection from you and that shooting star but I just remember it every time I see you. WAHAHA.

Maybe I can give a connection. Hmmm. One thing is that I love shooting stars and I always dream of watching shooting stars again. Maybe someday I can se it. I'll wait for it like I'm waiting for you.


Even if stars are dying they still die in a beutiful way. They make people happy even if they are falling from the sky already.

There is a rainbow because it's for me.

Wow, today is July 21, 2008. It's Monday today. It's ben one month since that rainy night in Rural Bank of Cainta.

I'm really happy today and I hope I'm always like this forever. He talked to me again and I'm really happy.

There's a rainbow this afternoon. It rained with the sun and I'm glad. I'm really happy.

I miss him but life's like that. Like what I had received this morning. I read a message and it's about things that you can't have. Hmmm that's right not everything you see can be yours but IU believe that we can be together someday. Wahaha

I'm really happy today.....There are a lot of things that happened.

When I saw the rainbow I remembered my grandma. The last time I saw a rainbow was 5 years ago and with my grandma.

First is that I got a high score on my quizzes in school. Then, he talked to me again. I ate choco mucho. There's a rainbow. I listened to songs I love. I have a bestfriend. I have a lot of friends in school. I ate something delicious. I enjoyed my life.

I'm happy because the sun is shining for me. The rain is falling for me. The wind is blowing for me. There is a shade of trees for me. There are people around for me. The color of the sky is blue for me.

Pizza is living for me. Wahaha. Asa.

I'll forget him...NAH I can't haha

hmmm I just said that I'll forget him because he don't care at me but when he smiled at me this morning hmmm my mind changed...haha

I'm wrong. I know that. But you see, I can't forget him. Hmmm..that's all...

I JUST CAN'T FORGET HIM....BECAUSE....HE IS SOMETHING THAT CAN'T BE FORGOTTEN. HE IS SOMETHING IMPORTANT TO ME. EVEN IF IT HURTS ME SOMETIMES, HE IS STILL IMPORTANT.

I'm sorry if I didn't accomplished what I said. I'm just happy that for a long time he smiled to me again.

WAHAHA...I'm really something now...haha...^_^

The song on my Blog

I heard this song for weeks already. I decided to put it on my Blog because of you. Again everything was because of you.

The lyrics is really related to me and you. Hmmm..especially this line:

I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

It's really true because I don't want to be alone and since that day it seems like you are already different from that person I know.

Never Let This Go
Paramore

Maybe if my heart stops beating
It won't hurt this much
And never will I have to answer
Again to anyone

Please don't get me wrong

Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

One day you'll get sick of
saying that everything's alright
And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending
Just like I am tonight

Please don't get me wrong

Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

Let this go, let this go

But I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone
But now I feel like I don't know you

I'll never let this go
I can't find the words to tell you
That now I feel like I don't know you.

1 month and 24 days

I loved you for 1 month and 24 days. I liked you and will always like you.

There are so many things that happened to me for 1 month and 24 days. Everything happened so fast. Every single day with you or even without you but still have a connection made me so happy.

For 1 month and 24 days, we had a connection. I sent a message to you and you replied. I talked to you and you talked to me. I smiled at you and you smiled back at me. But the only difference is I like you but it seems like you don't like me at all. I hoped and I'll still continue to hope even if I'm already trying to forget you for a while.

For 1 month and 24 days, I felt like I live in the world I always wanted to have. I became so so so happy. But time is so fast and just one day everything changed. Because of me, you are already gone. Just one day, everything that was happy became mournful for me. I don't know what you feel but for me the happiness I once felt became a grave.

I really miss you. Even if I see you, you are like not there at all. I feel invisible when I'm near to you.

In my dreams, you are still there. The same as in reality. You hate me in my dreams and it really makes me cry because even in my sleep, you hate me. That even in my dream world you don't like me.

June 21, 2008

This poem is made for my Pizza.

It's Raining Again

I'm walking my way to the terminal,
when I remembered that rainy night with you.

It's raining again,
just like that Saturday night,
where you made me so happy,
where I talked and you talked.

It's raining again
on that same place,
where we stayed for a short time.

We waited for the rain to stop.
I wished for the rain to not stop.
It didn't happen,
but still the rain was hard and we can't go home.

It's raining again.
I missed that night,
as I remember you and me walking fast.

It's raining again.
I'm sad.

It's raining again.
But this time it's too different.

Because this time,
i'm walking without you.

Because this time,
i'm waiting for the rain to stop without you.

Because this time,
i'm on that place again without you.

Because this time,
you don't care at all.

Because this time,
maybe you already forgot me.

Because this time,
you already hate me.

It's raining again
on that place.
I'm alone.

I just imagine you standing right next to me.
I just imagine you smiling again.
I just imagine you talking to me again.
I just imagine hearing you laugh.

It's raining again.
My heart is in pain.
In pain,
because you are already gone.

Goodbye Pizza, See you someday!!!

hmmm..Tagalog ulit.

Di mo na ako pinapansin. Di ka na tumitingin sa akin. Di ka na ngumingiti. Di mo ba alam na nakakalungkot yun?

Siguro kailangan na kitang kalimutan. Malungkot man pero kailangan kasi nasasaktan ako.
Ayaw man ktang kalimutan pero kailangan kasi mukhang ayaw mo naman sa akin. Akala ko pa naman magiging masaya na ako pero ewan ko biglang naging ganun. Ewan kasi ako eh diba?

Matatagalan bago kita tuluyang makalimutan. Matatagalan.

Pero naniniwala ako na kung tayo talaga sa future edi tayo. Mag-me-meet ulit ang ating ways. At iintayin ko pa rin yung time na yun. Na kahit kakalimutan kita ngayon, aasa pa rin ako na darating yung time na magiging masaya din ako kapag nagmeet ulit ang ways natin.

Tandaan mo. Kakalimutan kita ngayon pero hindi mawawala yung feelings ko sa iyo. Mawawala lang yung pagiging close ko sa iyo. Mawawala lang yung happiness ko. Mawawala lang yung smile ko. Mawawala lang saglit kasi alam ko di naman siguro masyadong matagal yun.

Babalik din lahat ng yun sa tamanag panahon. Alam ko, naniniwala ako, at nagtitiwala
ako na mag-me-meet ulit ang daan natin. Babalik ung ngiti, ung, tawa, at yung ikaw.

It hurts. Wahaha. OO it hurts ang corny eh no? Ganun talaga. It hurts na namamaga na ung mata ko kakaiyak sa iyo. It hurts na lagi na lang akong tulala at iniisip kung paano ba magiging ok ang lahat. It hurts na nagiging plastic ako dahil ngumingiti ako pero ang totoo gusto kong umiyak. It hurts ulit dahil para akong ngumingiti sa pader. Di ka man lang mag smile back. It hurts na di ko na feel maging psyduck ulit dahil naaalala lang kita. Pokemon ako sabi mo. Ewan.

Hmmmmm....Kakalimutan kita for a while pero promise ikaw pa rin yung nandito sa heart ko. Wahaha Corny na naman.

Basta ayun na yun. Bahala na. I'll just pray for me and you. I trust, believe and I have faith for you. Bahala na, wahaha. EWAN.


pero parang ewan pa rin ako kasi magsusulat pa rin ako ng blog ko tungkol sa iyo or sa mga nangyayari sa akin at kapag nalulungkot ako dahil sa iyo kasi medyo..MEDYO..gumagaan yung pakiramdam ko pag nagsusulat ako ng tungkol sa iyo.

diba ANG EWAN NG MUNDO KO SIMULA NUNG MAKILALA KITA. MASAYA AKO DAHIL SA'YO. MR. EWAN KO. wahaha

Eto gusto kong Sabihin sa iyo!!!

Tagalog na to kasi di ko na talaga kaya. Kinakain na ako ng sarili ko. Ilang gabi na akong umiiyak at di makatulog dahil sayo.

OO gustong gusto kita. Kausap kita ngaun. Alam mo ba gusto kong sabihin. Gusto kong sabihin na gusto kita, na maghihintay ako. OO inaamin ko na. Di ko na talaga kaya. Sorry kung na-iilang ka. Sorry talaga.

Naiinis na nga ako sa sarili ko kung bakit ako ganto eh. Ang gulo ko kasi. Na-eewan na ako. Naiinis talaga ako sa sarili ko.

Na-mimiss na kita ung ikaw, ung dati, ung friendship natin. Friendship nga ba un?...ewan ..basta

di ko masabi ng harapan kasi pangit tignan. OO pangit nga. Kaya nga di ko sinasabi sau eh. Kaya nga ganun. Kaya ang ewan ko. Kaya nagagawa ko ung magulong di ko dapat gawin. Kaya ako ganto.

Tama ka ako lang naman nagpapahirap sa sarili ko kasi lagi kitang iniisip. Lagi na lang ikaw. Simula ng makilala kita lagi na lang ikaw. Simula nun. Sana naman wag kang lumayo. Alam ko, oo nga pala sabi mo di ka laging nandyan...Na may ginagawa ka palagi. Wala na ako. Wala na talaga.

Tignan mo umuulan na naman. Ang ewan talaga. Ayoko na!!!....sasabog na ako sa kaiisip. Lagi na lang kasi akong nag-iisip. Pano ba kita maalis sa isip ko?....ayaw ko na baka bigla akong mapagod at ayaw kong mapagod kasi gusto kita., sabi ko nga at lagi kong prayer na bigyan ako ng patience and hope sa paghihintay sa iyo. O ayan sa iyo na talaga hindi na sa taong ewan ko kung ano ba talaga.

Pasensya ka na talaga. Sorry. Sorry Sorry

wala na akong masabi kundi sorry sa mga pinag-gagagawa ko. Di lang talaga ako makagawa ng tama pag naiisip ka. Kaya nga ang ewan ko...Tina-tryy ko na alisin ka muna sa isip ko pero ayon....medyo mahirap..hindi pala medyo!!..sobra...kasi natatakot ako na bigla kang mawala....kaya yun...kung mabasa mo man to,,...ano kaya sasabihin mo?

ano sasagot ka ba siguro hindi at magprepretend ka lang na wala kang nabasa. Parang ewan kasi ako eh. Tignan mo dito ko sinasabi at di sa iyo!!...gumagamit pa ako ng code na pizza pero alam ko naman na alam mo na ikaw un...na ikaw yun..na ikaw yun...paulit-ulit na kasi ang ewan ko talaga..

nahihiya na ako...sobra....sobrang sobra,,,pero wala akong magagawa pag di ko nalabas to ang ewan na ng mundo ko. Lalong gugulo ang mundo ko ang isip ko. Try ko na di ka isipin...try lang..sana magsucceed. Sana.

pero kung mabasa mo man to...try ko nga eh...pero di pa rin mawawala yung "gusto kita" Hindi mawawala yun...oo sobrang ewan ko na....alam mo ba ibig sabihin ng ewan....hmm alam mo na siguro un....

diba...ang ewan ko!!!...di ko masabi ng harapan, di ko masabi ng totoo, kainis na cellphone yan....ang sarap itapon pero di ko matapon kasi nandun ka....mawawala ung message mo..isa pa pala un..di ko dinedelete ung messages mo kasi ayaw kong mawala...parang ikaw kasi un eh...

alam mo naman kung ano tong sinasabi ko diba!!...sana naman basahin mo to!!...ng maintindihan mo na ako!!!...Na-eewan na talaga ako!!!....ayaw na..ayaw na...hindi sa ayaw kita kundi sa ayaw ko na na magalit ka..isa pa ayaw ko na mareject mo ako....pero habang tumatagal..parang ganun na rin ang nagyayari....dahil nga sa ginagawa ko...dahil dun...ano??...ang ewan ko no!!!

sabi ko nga iintayin ko ang perfect time..kung bibigyan man ako ng chance na ikaw nga..talagang iintayin ko ung time na yun..kasi gusto kita!!!...na sana mayroon nga akong inaantay diba!!Na sana di nasasayng ung panahon ko na maghintay sa iyo, na sana balang araw eh ikaw nga talaga yun!!!

sobrang gulo ko!!..ayan sinabi ko na..edit ko na lang pag may naalala ako.....pero sa ngayon to muna...

PIZZA, Where's the Glue?

Pizza, am i already gone? Am I already invisible to you? Am I already not existing to your world?

I hope not. That makes my life sad. I really like you but I still have to wait. I know I can wait. I believe. One problem is..Am I existing to you?

I am here ready to wait but I am waiting for something that I don't know. I don't know if this feeling will have a reciprocal. I don't even know if you like me too. I don't know.

I am waiting for someone. That someone who is very special to me. That someone who always hurts my feelings. That someone who is I don't know.

Please..I am already stuck here. I mean I admit it now. I like you so much. I tried not to but it's already there and I will keep it until that day. Until you will be open. I mean until the day that I don't know if that comes.

But I believe that you will like me too...Someday. AND that someday will come...I know..I trsut..I believe..I really am.

Where's the glue? I think I need it now. Is it gone too?

False Pretense

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus


Oh, it's time to let it go

The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you
When a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew
Don't sweat it, set off false pretense

Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Yeah, and it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Ca-ca-ca-cause you know

In sacrifice, false pretense
You'll learn again, stop pretending
Don't deny, false pretense
You'll learn again

All alone you know you thought you got the best of me
You were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
I cannot believe you claimed you were my family
Don't sweat it, set off false pretense

Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Yeah, and it doesn't seem likely to fade
Betray, you're not gonna be willing to change
Ca-ca-ca-cause you know

In sacrifice, false pretense
You'll learn again, stop pretending
Don't deny, false pretense
You'll learn again

Oh, it's time to let it go

I can't seem to understand it how
you've turned out to be so cold
You tried but were caught red handed,
are you happy with your role?
It's funny to me how you've turned into such a drug

In sacrifice, false pretense
You'll learn again, stop pretending
Don't deny, false pretense
You'll learn again

So play-ay-ay the game until you run out
And play-ay-ay the game into my head

He played it during that rain.

Heart for You

Here are some cute images of heart that I found in the internet. I really like hearts. Even the quotes and I just made this article because I remembered my classmate who always sends me this symbol:

which I just got the meaning yesterday. She first sent it to me 3 years ago and I was glad because after three years I already know the meaning of it.

Rubix Cube!!!

Today, I played rubix cube. After a long, long time I played it again. I remembered the day when I played it first. It was March 12, 2008 at 11:55 am. I was thought by my master Nowelyn Cris Binasoy.

I really hate rubix cube that time because all of my classmates played rubix cube and they don't listen to the teacher. Then after a few months I asked my classmates to teach me but they don't. Then I asked Nowie and she teached me.

I remebered that from our Break period up to our last subject she taught me how to play it and at the end of the class I completed it.

After that day, I became addicted to it but I already forgot the use of rubix cube after our graduation. But I remembered it today because after a long time I touched a rubix cube again.

My classmate taught me again the use of the steps I know and my new master is Reychie. Haha. It took me 3 hours to remember the steps I know.

I miss my classmates because I remember them everytime I play rubix cube.

Heart Quotes

Now, here are heart quotes which I like. I really, really like.