Realization...

I made a mistake. It's not that I'm taking back the words I had said yesterday. It's just that I realized that I'm wrong.

I had this thought on our Filipino subject. We were asked by our professor to close our eyes for a moment. Then when she told us that we can open our eyes now, she asked what was the first thing that we imagined. My classmate was called and she said that she thought that we were going to pray. The next one called is me. Hmmm, I have to answer honestly and I told her that the first thing on my mind was THE ONE I LIKE. Yup..she asked if who was that and I told the whole class. Those who has a crush on me looked at me and I hate it...hmmm...Next one called is a boy and he said that he imagined his dad and the last one was my friend. She said that she imagined her mom and she cried because she is missing her mom.

After that we had an activity. Translating words into Filipino. English to Filipino. I laughed harder because everything we are doing makes me happy. I mean, I had this idea of not transferring to another school because:

First, I have my classmates. I mean they are super good to me. They treat me very nicely unlike something from my 2nd year experience in high school. Hmm...Also they are too friendly to me and they like em so much. I will miss them terribly.

Second, the professors who are teaching in the unpopular school. Yup! They are teaching there even though our school is not popular. They want the students to gain knowledge and I can tell that they are good teachers because they are well-educated. They graduated from the schools in Manila but they chose to teach here.

Third, I am popular in that school. I mean, people know me. I am also excelling in that school. I have good grades. I'm a candidate in Cum Laude.

Lastly, my classmates and people are telling me that God has a purpose for me there. I mean who might know, that I can make this school popular. Hmmm...That's what they are telling me.
Hmmm..Now I'm confused. God has answered my prayers...I said that I had my realization thought while walking home but when I'm already at the house my mother told me that I can transfer already. Now, I don't know what to do.