Trust Him

There is something going in my mind today...It sucks to think about it and I can't get over it.

Since last night, I am praying for something. I am praying for him. This past few weeks, I think he is avoiding me. It gives me a hard feeling. It gives pain and I can't concentrate on what I am doing.

The way he smiled (or should I say that he really smiled at me) is too different. It is hard to describe but I think he was surprised that he smiled at me and then ignored me quickly.

All that time, it was him that I was thinking and it gives me pain again. Over and over. I quickly prayed after that. I prayed that everything that is happening will be fine. I am praying that it's just me that is thinking that way and it is nothing. Nothing really...

I prayed again...Maybe I prayed for 5 times now. I opened the Bible for help. I found a verse in Lamentations 3:17-25..

" 17I cannot find peace

or remember happiness.

18I tell myself, "I am finished!

I can't count on the LORD

to do anything for me."

19Just thinking of my troubles

and my lonely wandering

makes me miserable.

20That's all I ever think about,

and I am depressed. ^[b] 21Then I remember something

that fills me with hope.

22The LORD's kindness never fails!

If he had not been merciful,

we would have been destroyed. ^[c] 23The LORD can always be trusted

to show mercy each morning.

24Deep in my heart I say,

"The LORD is all I need;

I can depend on him!"

25The LORD is kind to everyone

who trusts and obeys him."

It gave me a feeling of hope again. A feeling which tells me to trust the Lord. Nothing is impossible to Him and the one thing that I want for now is not yet in the right time for me to have. I understand it but I just want that one thing to be good to me...I want him to be the same one that I once like. That is why I prayed...Thanks to God for the message..^^