Blank is the pain that had no name

Weather: rainy day
Music: Silver Bells
Clothes: blue tops, maroon shorts
Smell: fresh air
Emotion: sad, empty, painful
Looking forward to: being numb and him liking me too
Worry: none
Annoyance: my feelings for him
Doing: crying and waiting
Reading: nothing
Sound: Silver Bells
Pain: heart
Itch: none
Hate: myself for liking him
Environment: lifeless, painful world
Taste: none
Want: to have an amnesia
Day: Saturday
Date: 13th December
Time: 08:22pm
Company: none
Windows open: yes
Thought: none..