Kimchi's Love Story

Actually it is not Kimchi's heart which was broken but it is Hyun Soo's. I was again broken hearted for the second time. I was very in love to my first love 4 years ago when this man appeared second time around in my life. I want to name him Kimchi actually it's Chingu(which means friend) but in Filipino it sounds like Chonggo(which means 'monkey') so I named him Kimchi. Kimchi and I met when I was still in Grade School(Grade 6).

Me and my best friend, Kaye, were playing Badminton that time when a tricycle was passing by. We went to the other side of the street to avoid the tricycle and I saw on the tricycle my Kimchi. That's the first time we encountered each other but I don't think he saw me looking at him while the tricycles is passing by. I asked my friend if she knows who that is and she told me that it is her classmate. I always asks her about Kimchi because they are very close to each other. But time passed by and I forgot Kimchi already.

When I entered high school I met my first love(Astroboy). His name is not really Astroboy but we named him Astroboy because of his hair. Astroboy knows that I love him. He talks to me but not that often because he is afraid about what people thinks. I love him so much but he loves my best friend(Mae). Mae is different from my best friend(Kaye) at home. They are two different people.

After one year, Kaye's father died and we became close again that time. I usually goes to their house to be with her and that's the time where Kimchi knows me. He is also in Kaye's house but I don't recognize him already. After Kaye's father was buried. Kaye said that she wants my picture. She said that she will use it in her project but actually he gave it to Kimchi. She told me that after I gave her my picture. I was ashamed because my picture is not that good.

I was in the afternoon class when I am in Second Year High School. After school, me and my classmates always walks near the store to go to the tricycle terminal. We always buy food and ice cream. But one afternoon, while buying ice cream I saw Kimchi walking with his friends. He and his friends looked at me but I ignored him. I also saw him in the tricycles terminal and we became seatmates for that night. I put out my book with a picture of Astroboy and maybe he saw it. I am really bad that time and I hate myself for that.

Few days later, I asked Kaye about Kimchi and she said that Kimchi has a girlfriend already. I really hate myself because of that. After knowing that news, I already focused on Astroboy but my mind keeps me on thinking about Kimchi. I always wait for him in the tricycle terminal but sometimes he goes home very early and sometimes I saw her with her girlfriend. I can't explain why I am mad when I saw her with her girlfriend. Maybe I am jealous but I should not be because at that time I still love Astroboy but I don't know why I am. I really can't understand myself that time. I think I like him already but it's not good because he have someone in his heart already. I think he loves the girl so much so I can't tell him. I just keep this feeling still inside me by focusing to Astroboy.

But after 2 years, graduation is already here. We graduated in different schools and I am sad because I always wait for him in the terminal before graduation because I can't see him anymore. Too sad I didn't see him. Astroboy broke my heart and so is Kimchi but what hurts most is Kimchi texted me on my cellphone because I texted him. We became friends but he still don't know that I like him. I also asked him to give me an advice about love but he doesn't know that it's all about him. I am learning to forget him until now because of her girlfriend. And I hope that someday he will read this blog to let him know that he is secretly loved by me.