Kimchi's Love Story

Actually it is not Kimchi's heart which was broken but it is Hyun Soo's. I was again broken hearted for the second time. I was very in love to my first love 4 years ago when this man appeared second time around in my life. I want to name him Kimchi actually it's Chingu(which means friend) but in Filipino it sounds like Chonggo(which means 'monkey') so I named him Kimchi. Kimchi and I met when I was still in Grade School(Grade 6).

Me and my best friend, Kaye, were playing Badminton that time when a tricycle was passing by. We went to the other side of the street to avoid the tricycle and I saw on the tricycle my Kimchi. That's the first time we encountered each other but I don't think he saw me looking at him while the tricycles is passing by. I asked my friend if she knows who that is and she told me that it is her classmate. I always asks her about Kimchi because they are very close to each other. But time passed by and I forgot Kimchi already.

When I entered high school I met my first love(Astroboy). His name is not really Astroboy but we named him Astroboy because of his hair. Astroboy knows that I love him. He talks to me but not that often because he is afraid about what people thinks. I love him so much but he loves my best friend(Mae). Mae is different from my best friend(Kaye) at home. They are two different people.

After one year, Kaye's father died and we became close again that time. I usually goes to their house to be with her and that's the time where Kimchi knows me. He is also in Kaye's house but I don't recognize him already. After Kaye's father was buried. Kaye said that she wants my picture. She said that she will use it in her project but actually he gave it to Kimchi. She told me that after I gave her my picture. I was ashamed because my picture is not that good.

I was in the afternoon class when I am in Second Year High School. After school, me and my classmates always walks near the store to go to the tricycle terminal. We always buy food and ice cream. But one afternoon, while buying ice cream I saw Kimchi walking with his friends. He and his friends looked at me but I ignored him. I also saw him in the tricycles terminal and we became seatmates for that night. I put out my book with a picture of Astroboy and maybe he saw it. I am really bad that time and I hate myself for that.

Few days later, I asked Kaye about Kimchi and she said that Kimchi has a girlfriend already. I really hate myself because of that. After knowing that news, I already focused on Astroboy but my mind keeps me on thinking about Kimchi. I always wait for him in the tricycle terminal but sometimes he goes home very early and sometimes I saw her with her girlfriend. I can't explain why I am mad when I saw her with her girlfriend. Maybe I am jealous but I should not be because at that time I still love Astroboy but I don't know why I am. I really can't understand myself that time. I think I like him already but it's not good because he have someone in his heart already. I think he loves the girl so much so I can't tell him. I just keep this feeling still inside me by focusing to Astroboy.

But after 2 years, graduation is already here. We graduated in different schools and I am sad because I always wait for him in the terminal before graduation because I can't see him anymore. Too sad I didn't see him. Astroboy broke my heart and so is Kimchi but what hurts most is Kimchi texted me on my cellphone because I texted him. We became friends but he still don't know that I like him. I also asked him to give me an advice about love but he doesn't know that it's all about him. I am learning to forget him until now because of her girlfriend. And I hope that someday he will read this blog to let him know that he is secretly loved by me.

Goodbye Rain!!! ㅠㅠ

Our last outing as schoolmates happened last April 4-5,2008. It was a cold night coz we had an overnight swimming here in our city.

This picture was taken before sunset and that's the time where we are already fixing our things to go home.



That day was very teary for me because we can't have our get together next year for the reason that we are going to separate our ways. We will have a new life for college and high school is no more.

But before saying good-bye here is the story of our class' last night.
At 5:00pm we met ourselves near the house of my best-friend. We went to the resort in our city and after few hours, we cooled ourselves by going to the pool.

Water was very cold coz at the same time it's raining while we swam. We played games like finding coins in the pool and running in the pool(yup, running...hehe). I forgot the other games...


Well my favorite time is eating time...we ate street foods which the parents of our two classmate cooked. We ate kikiams, hotdogs, fishball, singkamas and our own snacks like crackers, chichiria(junk foods), and Pepsi Coke, Coca Cola for our drinks...

Okay..back to my story...I entitled it Goodbye Rain coz it's raining that dawn and I am crying alone. I want to go upstairs to the rooftop of the apartment we rented to shout but when i went upstairs, I saw the man who is the reason why i'm crying.

That man was my first love but he don't care about me. He knows I exist but not in his life. He loves my bestfriend. I don't know what to do that time. I just stood up crying before him and he just left without comforting me.

We talked that dawn too but I was the one who asked him. He agreed and I locked the door from this room:
We talked but just a little bit coz my mind was blank and actually I didn't say what I'm supposed to say. I don't know why I wasn't able to say it. I wasted my time sitting near him only saying "thanks", "sorry", "I don't know what to say". I'm really a fool but the most unforgettable word he said to me was "SORRY". That's what he said before going out of the room.

It made me cry a lot but at least no one from our class knows that I cried at 3:00am. It really affected my feelings and up to now when I think of that it makes me cry.

On my next blogs, I will tell you the story about me and my first love....I'll also post blogs about my memorable high school life...

Hope someone out there can give me an advice or some one out there post a comment on what to do?...How to let go of him...like that...

Thanks....See you Next Time...^_^

Forever Unknown

It's hard to fall in love to a person who does not know you...right?


It's heart-breaking coz he doesn't know that you exist. You see him everyday but he doesn't recognize you. You do everything for him but he doesn't care.

I had fallen in love to a Korean. I even studied their language just to understand him and to tell him how i feel in Korean words.

I go home very early after school and focus on my Korean Language study. It's hard but I still want to try just to follow my dream. I don't have time for hang-outs with my friend. I even sleep late at night just to study.

Now, I think i am still not that good but i will try to be one. I want to be with him but he doesn't know.

I am not in a palm of guilt coz at least I can understand a little bit of them. And I feel that I am like him. I love Him so much.

I hope he reads this...I hope he does have one Blog.....