"History Repeats Itself"

For how many times am I being heartsick. Reality hurts. God is the only solution.

Why do I always choose those things that are not meant for me? I have my future but then I'm looking for the present which makes me sad.

Present told me, "If you can't find love, love will find you.". Present has been a good friend to me. A good friend and all that remains.

Future's been invisible for weeks. I haven't heard anything about future nor seen him. I'm having a confused mind and I'm too sorry for what I have done these past few months. I think..no I have been a somewhat kind of traitor for liking Present while I love my Future.

I'm still praying about future. Future's meant for me. Future is His Gift. I'm sorry. I really am.

I don't think I should post this one but I have to. If ever Future is reading this, He is still the one I like and hell yeah I'm suffering from the consequences of liking present while I like Future.

I said that history repeats itself because like what happened to the "First Love" thing...it happens to what I'm feeling with Present. And I know the reason behind that...Present's not meant for me because he is not my future for I have found my FUTURE already and I'm not that patient to wait but thank God that he is making me suffer for liking PRESENT so that I may forget him now and realize that HE IS NOT REALLY FOR ME.