The Problem With Hello

I only have three months left with my friends. I hope when we have our goodbyes when can still see each other. I really will miss them..^^

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....It's a very tough decision. I have to leave them for my future...Like what my friend told me...I have to enhance my knowledge by studying in another school...

I hate my traitor tears when I remember them..I mean when I think about what will happen on that day.

The Dentist is IN

Whoa...After the exam this afternoon, I rushed to go to the dentist, our family dentist....Hmmm. Our dentist's clinic is located at Pasig City and my school is in Antipolo City. It took ONE and Half boring Hours to go there.

Hmmm, the weather today is so hot. I hate it when I have to walk on a clear, hot, sunny day..^^

By the way, our family dentist is actually my sister so that means that everything is free..^^

Hmmm, I went to the clinic because my teeth hurts so much. I have to visit her. She told me that tehre is nothing wrong with my teeth and in fact it is in a good condition. She just removed something from my teeth and it's not aching now..^^

Hmmmm, everytime I am in her clinic, I always think about earthquakes. Haha...I used to think about that because my crazy mind thinks about the patients who will have a bleeding mouth after the earthquake..haha..

Also I hate it when my sister is cleaning my teeth. Although it is for my own good, I hate the smell of medicines.

My trip to her clinic is a good one..^^...I enjoyed it even if I stayed there for only THIRTY MINUTES..^^

First and Last Letter

I have no permission about writing this but I will anyway. Today, I received a letter from my classmate. Hmmm. I'd like to post it so that I will never ever forget it..^^

Here it goes:

good day!!! hehehe di naman talaga ako gumagawa ng letter kaya i don't know where to start hehehe... ang akin lang dapat..make your own decision.. para mas alam mo kung saan ka talaga magiging kontento..para ndi end..wala kang sisisihin... hehe....for me..talented ka hehe..kaya sayang lang kung di mo ma e-enhance, , gets? kasi mukhang di mo naman gusto yung skul mo..(right?) kaya ikaw ang dapat magdecide para sa sarili mo. Sayang kasi yung knowledge mo, (survey, joke) kaw..listen to your instinct..hehe

"Decide para sa sarili mo..." hehe..."

Kasi kaming mga friends mo andito lang to support and to guide you...

yun lang hehe... oink oink hehehe.. :-P

That is what the letter tells...Hmmm..Even though it's so sad I still thank that person who answered my questions..^^

Watermelon

Yesterday, I went to Siena College of Taytay. Hmmmm..I love the perfume from Penshoppe...^^...I was with my classmate...I'm so happy we were together...^^

I enjoyed the view from my school on the way to Siena. I also enjoy the scent of watermelon..^^..Red..A..^^...

Hahah...This post is really nonsense...It's full of abbreviations...^^

Shadow and Blush

Shadow and Blush are my friends. Hmmm, I used a nickname for them..^^...That means it is not their real name...^^...Haha...

Ok..Hmmm....Shadow was so sad because he was heart-broken by Blush. Oh! His exams was affected becaues of that. It's a big no-no...

I'm too sad for bith of them. Although Shadow is so smart in school, he was still heart-broken. Blush is loved by our classmates and friends. She was so popular and she is really cute.

Hmmmm, i hope Shadow can recover so fast because there are still plenty of exmas...Hmmm..although he was broken, they are still friends and that's a good thing...

First Rainbow

Today at 8:32am, I saw a big, shiny, clear rainbow at the sky. I finished my exam in English so I went outside our room with my friend who finished her exam too. Actually, I already had sure 6 mistakes from that exam. Ah! I hate it but it's ok.

Hmmm, I looked at the sky and was surprised to see a big rainbow. It's so clear and I shouted. Haha. My old classmates..(my classmates in first semester..) saw me and they already know why...^^

Haha...

I love the rainbow...Hmmm...It's the first time in the year that I saw a rainbow..^^

Happy Ending

I had just finished watching the movie I told..^^

Ah...it's so good...I wish in real life..specifically mine...hehe..I will have a happy ending...a very happy ending with God's Gift...with the ONE I LIKE....I hope I can....

I also hope...that someday...he will be able to read the letters..the notes...I had written eversince I met him...My journals on the days that has passed when I miss him...when he is there...when he makes me happy...everything that I had written there...^^

I wish that someday I will have the courage to say what I feel before everything's too late...^^

I like him so much and I will always pray that someday...at the perfect time...my dreams will come true....my dream to be with him...^^

Untitled

3:10 pm

I've been working on crochet this week. I am doing a small brown pocket purse. I love doing crochet.

I have an exam tomorrow. It's our Mid-Term Examination Week. Tomorrow our exam will be Chemistry...^^..Good Luck to us..

Movie Trip...Hmmm..I'd like to watch Becoming Jane. I heard it's a sad movie about Jane Austen.

I still don't know which to choose....URS or Sienna College Taytay...The unpopular or the popular...??

It's 3:10pm...I'm waiting .... not reviewing....waiting for the movie...waiting for him....waiting to whatever...

I'm writing again....

Thoughts from the Wind

I was walking home this afternoon. Today is a windy day. The wind is blowing so hard and it's so cool. I love to see the trees following the wind's direction. I love to see the clear sky and those white, fluffy clouds.

While walking, I had this thought in my head. Looking at the clouds, I thought about him. I thought about the ONE I LIKE. Is he thinking about me too? Why did he not respond to me when I asked him a question this morning? Am I invisible ti his sight again? Am I a stranger again?

Then, after the wind blew, I realized that I should stop thinking about him. That I should not think about him. That I should forget him. That I have to because it's not yet the time.

I'm trying to stop my head again but it's too hard. It's very hard but I got to try. If he does not care, maybe someday he will. Maybe...

I hope so..but for now...nothing...I don't want to stop thinking about him but...BUT...but...

Hmmm..I hate this feeling again...I really do...

Accidents Caused by Mirror

It was a clear day last year. I forgot the date but it was my first semester in college. We are having our break and I went outside our room. I looked at the other rooms and I saw a girl. Hmmm..I borrowed her mirror. From that day, we became close friends.

After that semester, I enrolled to their section and now I am a part of their class. We are close friends. Very close friends. We also have other 3 friends and all in all we are five in our circle of friends. I love to be with them.

I reaaly do but I guess I have to leave them to study in another school. Even though I will be far from them, I hope we can still be good friends..^^

Going Back to the Past

Right now, I'm waiting for a movie. It is one of my favorite movies. The title is The Classic. Hmmm..I love that movie very much. It has a nice ending and also the story's soundtrack is my favorite...Canon...^^..Haha

As usual...Canon is my favorite so every movie that has a soundtrack of Canon is my favorite..^^

Hmmmm, I love the story...I hope...(everyone hopes)...that the story will come true to their own lives...even though in reality the probability of having the same life in the movie is 0.5...hehe..or maybe lower than that....

I'm just so happy to find that movie again and to have a chance to watch it again...^^

Teaching Chemistry

This would be my last post for today...

After our English subject this morning. I taught my classmates the Chemistry 2. I taught them everything...from the prelims up to our lectures from mid-terms. I'm an HRM student and I haven't experienced teaching but thank God I had taught them. Also, I hope that everything I taught to them will remain.

I had lectured about the Density, Nuclide Decays, Alpha emission, Beta emission, Molecular weight, Molecular mass, formula mass, molecular formula, conversion, percentage composition, percentage abundance, empirical formula, Avogadro's Number and everything...

It took us 4 hours to finish the lesson. I used 3 pieces of chalk, 1 tissue, water and everything. I solved problems, taught them to solve those hard problems. Laughed, talked and smiled..^^

I love my classmates that's why I did that and also I want to do that so that I can glorify God. On our Sunday preaching last Sunday, it tells about helping people. I love to help them so that they will thank God. I hope they thanked Him...^^

Hmmmm..I really wish that all of us will pass the exam on Tuesday....I will pray for it..^^

Tomorrow, it's Saturday, I will teach them again. Our lecture for tomorrow will be about Balancing Equations, Mole-to-mole, grams-to-mole, mass-to-mass, percentage yield, chemical combustion and so on...

Tomorrow is my last day of teaching them. I will really pray for them...and for em also...to pass the upcoming exam...Haha..

I had a great day teaching them...They became super close to me because of that..^^

Anne

I love Anne Hathaway. Ever since I was in my 2nd Year in High School, I always love her.

The first movie I saw...where she was in.....was the Ella Enchanted. Then next are the Princess Diaries Sequel and the Havoc. After that, I never saw movies she's casting in.

Now, I will watch her again. I will start my movie trip...Anne Hathaway...after our exam next week. Hmmm..I'm too excited...She played the part of my new favorite author, Jane Austen...^^

Here are the list of movies where you can see her:

1. The Fiance
2. Alice in Wonderland
   
3. Bride Wars
4. Passengers
5. Rachel Getting Married
6. Get Smart's Bruce and Lloyd Out of Control
7. Get Smart
8. Becoming Jane
9. The Devil Wears Prada
10. Brokeback Mountain
11. Havoc
12. Hoodwinked!
13. The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
14. Ella Enchanted
15. Nicholas Nickleby
16. Neko no ongaeshi
17. The Other Side of Heaven
    
18. The Princess Diaries
    

Jane Austen

This afternoon, after class, me and my friends went to the National Bookstore. I went there and asked them if they can come with me. Actually, I was going to buy an English-Filipino, Filipino-English Dictionary. The dictionary available in the National Bookstore are not my type. I mean, I'm sorry because I really don't like it. I don't trust such books. Then instead of looking at the dictionary, I went straight to the classic novels.

I was surprised to see Wuthering Heights by one of the Bronte sisters. I picked it up and never did I let go. Then, another one, I've been looking for is the Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen. I was again surprised because I saw it. I picked it also. Then, I saw another books buy Jane Austen. All in all, I bought three books by Jane Austen and the Wuthering Heights.

Last night, I thought of watching Pride and Prejudice but the buffering is so slow so I turned the pc off. Then, I re-opened it because I was looking for Jane Austen's book. I had acquired that she only has six novels. Her first book was Sense and Sensibility; second is Pride and Prejudice. Hmmm..I really love it. I can't believe that I already have 3 books by her. I will look for the other three to complete my set...^^

I'm excited to read my books. The four books I had bought will be my book for the months of February, March, April and June. That means that I will buy my 29th book on June. Ahhh..I hope I will not be able to see good books for the next four months because I have to wait for June so that I can buy it..^^

Final Decision

There my final decision is that I will transfer in another school next semester. Hmmm..Although it's too hard to leave my friends and classmates, I have to.

I will miss all of them. I really will. The last days of my college life here in the city would be too sad. But it's ok. It should be.

I will not regret my decision. I should not...Hmmm...

Realization...

I made a mistake. It's not that I'm taking back the words I had said yesterday. It's just that I realized that I'm wrong.

I had this thought on our Filipino subject. We were asked by our professor to close our eyes for a moment. Then when she told us that we can open our eyes now, she asked what was the first thing that we imagined. My classmate was called and she said that she thought that we were going to pray. The next one called is me. Hmmm, I have to answer honestly and I told her that the first thing on my mind was THE ONE I LIKE. Yup..she asked if who was that and I told the whole class. Those who has a crush on me looked at me and I hate it...hmmm...Next one called is a boy and he said that he imagined his dad and the last one was my friend. She said that she imagined her mom and she cried because she is missing her mom.

After that we had an activity. Translating words into Filipino. English to Filipino. I laughed harder because everything we are doing makes me happy. I mean, I had this idea of not transferring to another school because:

First, I have my classmates. I mean they are super good to me. They treat me very nicely unlike something from my 2nd year experience in high school. Hmm...Also they are too friendly to me and they like em so much. I will miss them terribly.

Second, the professors who are teaching in the unpopular school. Yup! They are teaching there even though our school is not popular. They want the students to gain knowledge and I can tell that they are good teachers because they are well-educated. They graduated from the schools in Manila but they chose to teach here.

Third, I am popular in that school. I mean, people know me. I am also excelling in that school. I have good grades. I'm a candidate in Cum Laude.

Lastly, my classmates and people are telling me that God has a purpose for me there. I mean who might know, that I can make this school popular. Hmmm...That's what they are telling me.
Hmmm..Now I'm confused. God has answered my prayers...I said that I had my realization thought while walking home but when I'm already at the house my mother told me that I can transfer already. Now, I don't know what to do.

Going Crazy

I'm not yet done to my Chemistry Homework. I'm so tired. It's not that hard but the only thing that is making my homework hard is that my mother, Ching-ching and my sister is interrupting me.

My head is so tired. I want to cry. I want to go away from home but I can't because I still have to finish everything. I had so many thoughts in my head and I really hate thinking about them.

Right now, I'm waiting for the one I like. I hope I can talk to him but I'll be waiting until 7:30pm. I really want to talk to him. Everytime, I talk with him, my head goes fine..^^

I don't want to do my paperwork again. I'm really tired. I guess I will not sleep today because of that...

Hmmm, Today, I really had a terrible day. A day full of things...Things that I am thinking I can have but I really can't. For example is that, I want my mom to approve my transferring to other school but she can't. Another is having the things I want but I can't...and lastly, I hope I can talk to THE ONE I LIKE...but I think I can't because he is not online...I also want to go to my secret place but I can't because it's so dark outside...I might be ...

OMO...I'm really tired..I hope God will heal me right now. I know He is there and I want to feel His presence right now. I'm praying but it seems like my prayer bounces of. I know God hears me. I believe and it is just somehing...

Today, my life is full of tears. Yep I can say that. The moment I woke up this morning, in school, my mother, my sister, my homework...everything's so wrong but I still believe that God is with me...That God loves me...That God is here even though ... I believe and I still thank Him for the things that is happenening to me right now. No matter how hard it is...

Family War

Everyday, the feelings I am acquiring through my family goes bad. I don't know why. I hate it. We are not like this before but now everything's change.

I really don't like it. Although most of the times I'm the one who starts the fight. I'll admit that I'm lazy when it comes to house chores but I have a reason. I'm too busy studying. I also use my time here in the net. Yeah. That's terribly bad. But I don't like to do the chores...sometimes..^^ But if I'm in a good mood, I am doing it.

Also, they forced me to study in a school which I don't like. Though many people says that there is a reason why I am studying there right now. There is a purpose that God has given me. Hmmm, Right now, honestly, I am thinking of transfering to another school. To the school that will fill my desires. Although that means that I have to break the purpose. But I am also hesitating because the one I like will graduate in the same year I will if I will not ransfer. I mean if I will transfer, we will not graduate on the same year. Also, I will waste one year of studying.

But I really want to transfer..I hate it...I hate myself for not fighting for what I want when I still had the time.

This morning, I had my devotion. Before everything (about transferring in another school) happened, the devotion is about everything too. Yeah..^^...Hmm it says that ...I should be lucky because:

First I don't have a nice bag and shoes, but at least I ahve one.

Second, I am not studying in a popular school but at least I am studying and I am one of the top students right now.

Those are the two things that I had acquired...Hmmm..

I don't know what I will do now....Ah!!..It's too hard...But I know that God will help me. He will help me decide. He is the only One that I have and I should be focused to. He is the only One who can help me...

Goodbye!!

Ah! I have to go now.. Hmm.. If I have a longer time.. I will post as many as I can.. I really love my blog..especially now that it's SUPER COOL...


Haha..Hope everyone will like it..Also I hope you'll drop in some comments down there..^^.. Thanks and God Bless..^^..good luck to my exam..and to everyone..^^

Super Long Quiz

Tomorrow we will have a super long quiz in PDPR..Also in our Physical Education subject..Then on Thursday a long quiz again in DTID..

Ah!!..I have to review again..hmm...always..Then I have a homework in Filipino and Chemistry..^^Next week is our Mid-term exam..^^Ah!!..It's very hard..Yeah..I will have a sleepless night again..

Oh! Before I forgot..I'm having a tutor class..I'm the teacher and my classmates are the students..One in Chemistry and One in Math subject..^^

Although, it's very hard, I want to help them...They are my friends..^^..They treat me good and I have to return something to them..And..in the Bible..It says that we should:

"Never stop doing good for others..^^"

On our devotion in the praise team we had that..^^..I remembered something that we should help others because if they thank God, God will be more pleased..^^..I want God to be happy and I hope my classmates will thank Him..^^

God is super good in my life..Although tomorrow and the following days, I will have an extremely study time week, I still thank Him for the strength, wisdom, patience, protection and love that I am receiving from Him..^^..I'm very thankful to Him..^^..I know that I can do all things because God is with me and He will help me..^^

Angel Food Cake

This morning we baked our Angel Food Cake.. It costs us Php 150 for everything.. Then, we mixed everything...



The outcome is so cool..^^ It's super YummY... Very sweet.. And the color is pure white.. It's like a snow..^^ Also it's soft like a chiffon cake..^^ I love it..^^

I enjoy mixing..(fold in) the mixture before putting it in the pan. It requires much effort..^^ According to the lecture we had before baking.. Angel Food Cake is the hardest cake to do..^^ Maybe it's because we only need the egg whites.. Once there is an egg yolk, it will automatically be thrown at the garbage.. Also like I said..Mixing is very hard..

haha.. No matter what... it's still yummy..^^

Super Cool

Wah!!!

I enjoy my blog..

It's so good looking...
The music is so cool..haha

I hate this part of Pussycat Dolls..^^
Also..The background is super COOL..^^

I like my blog's new face..haha

Moonless nIghts..^^

Is it Hard to Forgive?

Is it really hard to forgive?

I have this problem again..
Yeah with my friend...
But I'll not tell what it was...^^



Hmmm..
Everytime someone is doing something to me...
(which I don't like)
...I always pray for a forgiving heart...

Though it's very hard to forgive others, we should forgive them.
Think about Jesus Christ..
He died to save us even if we are not good.
even if we hurt others..
He died because He loves us.
He don't want us to suffer from a deadly pain..
He was treated badly by people
but still He forgive them and died for them.

Yeah...That's what I think when I want to forgive someone.
Christ has forgiven us and so we have to forgive others no matter what they did to us..

Although it's very very hard
...we should...
And always put in our mind how Jesus forgave us on our sins.^^

Magical Sunday

I woke up at 6:30 am and my head aches because I slept last night at 11:45pm. I tried to sleep again and successfully I had. I woke up again at 8:30am. I prayed a long prayer for everything then I had my devotion.

A verse in the Bible made an impact to me. It's in 2 Corinthians 4:16.

"We never give up.
Our bodies are gradually dying,
but we ourselves are being made stronger each day."

There is something about that. Then after my devotion, I cleared up my things. It took me three hours to finish it and it's so hard. I put the things from the past to the trash cans. Although those things reminds me of something, I threw it up.

After that I watched my all time favorite movie. My Sassy Girl. The movie ended at 2:10pm. Then I took a bath. I finished everything I had to do at 3:30pm. Then I went to the church.

Praise and worship was so cool. I really enjoyed it because it's for God and not only the music but what the song tells. The preaching is about my devotion. Yup! Amazing..^^...That means that the message for me is that one..^^

Then after the church, I went to the National Bookstore because I have to buy a watercolor for my drawing subject..^^...There I recognized a car. The car of the one I like..(God's gift)....^^Inside the National Bookstore I saw his mom and we ended up looking for the same thing. We bought the same watercolor..^^...Wah!...It's really something..haha..I'm so happy and thankful to God for everything..^^

There..a magical Sunday...Now, I have to finish my homeworks...I have to draw my plate...Read an essay..Write the reports...Write the notes....Advance study in Chemistry...Pray to God..^^

Hmmmm..I really had a wonderful Sunday and I will never ever forget this day..^^

BTW, it's not in the align-left format because I think this will not look good if I do that for this post..^^

Kismet is building something for the one we love....Wahaha....Everything that happened today is so magical..thanks to God...Really..^^

The Truth

Mr. Invisible...
^^

Haha..
Sometimes when we don't know the truth..
we like to know what it is
even if we know that it will hurt us..

Then when we know it already...
we regret that we asked for it..
or
maybe we will still go for it...

We will wait...
Wait and wait..
Wait for everything to turn out the way we like it..^^

Grahams, DL, CM8

I am eating my niece's grahams right now..
Yeah..It's nonsense..
I want to write so I'm writing what I'm doing now..

I'm also waiting for my bestfriend in Australia..
My classmate in 4th Year High School..
My classmate who taught me how to cook bisoto..

Hehe..
My niece is playing with her KISHHY...hehe

Hmm..
It's been a while since I haven't posted so many things here...

Homeworks killing me..^^

God's helping me to live...
I thank Him for everything that's happening to my life..
whether it's not that good..^^

Hmmmmmmmmm....
I'm waiting here..
Waiting for my downloaded songs...

My classmate is on now..hehe..
We are talking right now..
Hmm..
What could be a nice topic..??
I have no idea but I terribly miss her..^^

Marie Digby

Wihhh..
I love Marie Digby..
She's next in line to Paramore for me..^^

Her songs are cool..
I like her voice and she plays guitar too..

Also..she has a nice hair..

I hope I can have all her CD's here in the Philippines..

I will collect them..^^

Haha..I love her songs..^^

My Hide-out

Wah!!!
I am so happy to find my place..
Haha!!

I found a place where no one I know will see me..
A place where I can go when I have to be alone..
A place where I can read my books..
A place where I can see the whole city...
A place where the wind blows freely..
A place where I can listen to myself and my music..^^

Ah!!...
It's a very nice place...
I haven't been there for so many years and I'm happy that it's still the same..^^

Hmmm..I've been looking forward to new books and musics...
I want to be on my place someday..or maybe next week with new books..
^^

Miss Invisible

Miss Invisible by Marie Digby

There's a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

The beginning, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldn't seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

Chorus

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

Changes

I will have my changes here again.
Instead of orange color only, I will add some new colors..

Also I will make my blog again...
ONE-LINER...

I mean I will have one sentence per line..
It will also be align left again...^^

Wihhh...I hope everyone will cope with it..

I find it more attracting..^^


Haha...

Sometimes we have to change..^^

Images

I love pictures. I want to have my own Cybershot so that I can take pictures of cloud, people or anything I want. Hmmm Someday I will have my nice and cool camera. That would be the first thing I will buy when I have a job already.

Right now, while working on my photobucket account, I'm listening to one of my favorite songs. And right now, I'm irritated by my ring. It's twisting and it makes me hard to type in the computer. I got thinner and that's the effect.

Oh by the way, I'm pale today. Haha. I have not gotten a right sleep for this past few weeks. I also have not eaten that much. I'm toobusy studying and forgetting the things I have to forget. Staying up late is one of my ways..^^

wHAT DOES ALL THIS TO DO WITH IMAGES? hAHA.

i WANT TO TAKE PICTURES. eVERY MOMENT i HAD AND although it will still take time before I have my cmera, I will patiently wait for it.

Hmmm, images, moments..everything in this world.....Thank God for everything...^^

Penguin

Be Happy always because God wants us to be happy...^^

Cold Week

Wihhh...It has been weeks since the coldness of my world begun. I like it though it makes me shiver every morning after taking a bath. Haha. I am happy that I can always feel the wind blowing and I love it. Too sad that I am going to miss it when summer is near.

My week was a little bit cold emotionally. Haha. I had a fight with my family again. I had lost my ruler. I was no. 2 in HRM 3 with a grade of 1.4 and the highest ion 1.3 in the prelims. I'm not that active in school.

But things turned out right after praying. When I am alone, I am always praying for patience and for forgiveness and endurance. Then last Tuesday, I had a big figth with everyone so I walked out from our home and went to the National Bookstore. I walked from our home to the highway. Hmmm, it's cold and tears are flowing in my eyes. No one was tehre so I'm free to cry. While crying I asked God for healing me. Then on my devotion, God talked to me. I had this thought that I was too blinded with love and my feelings are more focused on physical things rather than God. Then, God woke me up and shaked me by giving me pain that I deserve for all those things. I thanked Him and said sorry then when I woke up this Wednesday morning I searched for the pain but it's all gone and school, was fine. Everything's normal again...^^

Hebrews 11:40 "God has planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect."

Mcdo's First Love

I was watching a program in the television and a commercial break caught my attention. I think this will be my most favorite commercial of Mcdonald's. I really love it.

It tells a story of two children. The girl is beautiful but the boy looks nerd. The boy's first love is her but they ended up not together. Even though, the boy still does what makes the girl happy.

Too sad the ending is not good but I think many Filipinos will end up loving it because of the last line..

"Even though we did not end up together she will still be my first love."

Haha. I translated it in English and I really love it. Haha. Same situation...But I'm happy now...^^

Story for Today...

Nothing new happened. ^^. Oh! But I still have my homework in chemistry. I am not yet done and I haven't started it yet. Why? Omo! I am still waiting for him. I want to show him something...That's all then I can do my homework already. I hope he'll be online soon..^^

Hmmm... I have new links on the right side of my blog. The title is "Mine". You can find there sites that are very useful.

Scribd will help you on books, powerpoints and homeworks. It's very useful.

Youtube, Cruchyroll, Aimini and Imeem will help you on videos, music and everything.

Cyworld, Friendster, Myspace...My accounts for my friends..^^

Photobucket for pictures..

My Sketch

My own sketch. It's my first time to draw a face. It's our homework. Now, our homework is to sketch our own face. I hope I will be able to draw my face hmmm not like this..^^..Haha

It's hard..But at least I can draw..^^

Blue Foundations' Enemy

Enemy

We were lovers on the run
Heading for adventure
Ruinous and young

We fled across the broken land
Wild, deserted places
And it went out of hand

Watch your back
Stay with me
Someone here could be an enemy
Watch your back
Don't you see
One of us could be the enemy

We seized a house upon a hill
Damp and tainted ceilings
And broken windowsills

Seagulls hanging from the trees
Black and static water
Red and sticky leaves

Porlab ulit?

Haha..I just visited my High school's site.

http://profiles.friendster.com/porlab08

I heard the songs we used to like. From our theme songs like In My Life of The Beatles and our Graduation Song which is Never alone. I miss them so much. It was just weeks since I last saw some faces. We had our reunion. Haha. But now school..specifically college...We are busy again.Although we still have communications I still miss them..^^ Those unforgettable memories..^^

Porlab naman..

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We call ourselves PORLAB.

FLB:
mharke- class muse,este escort pala.
keb- Mr. Scotland
paul- founder, friendless Society
karl- class historian?
bert- gitarista beybeh!
katindig- adrian #1
wilson- astro!, japan boy
pipoy- class artist
adrai- adrian #2, rubiks boy!
james- future pastor,hehe
puffy- adrian #3, "may pang-decor sa basura"
ponio- balibolero
ruzzy- founder, yummy pilots!
jc- candelaria!,artist/dancer
bodang(jojo)- bangko central, class MAYOR

FLG:
rachel- online game addict
thep- BRACE yourselves #1
jenny lou- bangs galore, class salutatorian
justin joy- kim chiu to!
neng- class treasurer, "piso mo akin na"
princess- lady violet
papot- class vice mayor, emo #1
loleng- best C.E.O, reyna ng tribo nila ni toooottt!,emo #2
kenneth joy- golden queen
nanette- koreanadesperada!
april- class secretary,president, mapeh club
jaena-bespren ni karl!:D, mommy ni aneaj.
dhrea- BRACE yourselves #2
kristel- #1 fan/supporter, david cook, super twins
ibats- "ngiti ka naman diyan, one tym lang"
che- "let's get ot on!"
glaiza- hair oh so curly
shekinah- do re mi fa sol la ti do!
ayca- go lots!
mae- class muse
kristine- ate ng lahat, ms.scotland
aira- BRACE yourselves #3
memhe- mary ann #1
sheila- class P.R.O,"kung kaya nila,sila na lang"
porky- mary ann #2, sama governor
rox-bulacan-antipolo beybeh!
jamila-mami ever!
gale- sayaw hataw!
mafe- soccoro!
anne-class program committe chairman,"omg!"
tina- go carencia!
jiecelle- drum and lyre member\
karen- class valedictorian
madel- POOH-MA ;p
hannah- leading lady(ponio-hannah love team), super twins

LOU- ang diyosa, ang reyna! bonggang-bongga!'p

I got this from our site..hehe..^^

Elementary Friends..

Here are some list of my elementary friends..^^

1. Emerlita Fay Cabugsa.

She's my bestfriend. We became friends when I was in Grade 5. We were in the same row. Row 2 right side. Seat no. 2(me) and seat no. 4(she). (I have a good memory when it comes to those things..^^). She's my bestfriend and I'm her bestfriend. I remember that she always fights for me. I'm a crybaby because I am always bullied by my classmates. They used to tease me and Emerlita fights for me. She's the only one who stops me from crying and comfort me those days. Haha.

Also, our row is a great one. Seated on seat no 1 is Kingsley Espinosa. No.2 (me). No. 3 (Emmanuel Francisco). No. 4 (Emerlita Cabugsa) and No. 5 ( Carlo Bautista). Haha. I remember that row clearly. Hehe. Well our group is the best because we all like each other. We had a nice friendship thin that time.

2. Camille

I forgot her surname. She's my friend when we were in Grade 3. She's at my row too. Row four I think..(this one I'm not so sure hehe)...Hmmm..In elementary days, students exchange letters all the time. Like everyday and she's the one who always gives me souvenirs. Haha. Like paper cartons with colors. Hmm.. Bookmarks, letters, stationery and everything haha.

3. Wendell Ramos

He or she is my friend. Haha. A homo but nice guy. Haha. He is my Classmate from Grade 2 I think? But we becamse friends because we became seatmates when I was in Grade 5 because of the BallPen Problem..(Read it to know the story.Haha)..He is my classmate until First Year High School and he changed school already..I don't know where he is now.

4. Faye Tandog

There. haha. She's my funniest friend. I like her too. Hmmm She became my friend when I was in Grade 6 but my classmate since Grade 2. I used to visit her blog but she closed it now for some personal reasons. I still have connections to her through the ym. ^^.

When I was in Garde 6, I'm a naughty girl. Haha. Bad girl but not trouble maker only a little bit evilish. Haha. ^^...Faye was with me all the time. We had a circle of friends. I was in the front row that time and our whole right side group and the second row right side too are friends. The naughty ones in school. Naughty but have brains..^^

We always laugh and made some jokes on our top classmates. We used to do some freaking things haha. It would be better if it's a secret. ^^

5. Mark Jayson Almira

Oh1 Jayson is a little bit girlish when we were in Grade 6 but in high school he's already a boy but has still girlish moves. He's a boy because he loves someone. Haha. ^^. Well, He is my classmate since Grade 2 until Fourth Year High School. We went to the same school and there. He also belongs to Row 1 in Grade 6 and a member of our small group. He is my seatmate. ^^

6. Mark?

I forgot his name already but he has a Mark on his name. This one is a gay. He belongs to our small group in Grade 6 and he is very funny. I remember that when we had our cooking subject in Elementary, he is the one who taught me how to buy a fresh fish. The eyes of teh fish must be clear and not smoky and the sclaes must not be broken. He belongs to the front row and the seatmate of Jayson and Fay. The middle one....(Fay belongs to seat no. 4)

7. Celine

Oh! She's my friend since Grade 3. She's a quite type and we also had exchanges some letters and bookmarks.

8. Angelica Peteros

She is also my friend in Grade 3. She transferred to our school in high school when we were already 3rd year. She never became my classmate again in high school but she's my classmate since Grade 3 until Grade 6. We also exchanged bookmarks.

9. Carl

He is the one on my Soup Problems post. I described him there and I remember the name of her sister now. It is Camille. The same name of my our classmate.

Those are few people I stll remeber when I was in elementary. I still remember their faces and I hope they still know me and there will come a time when all of us will see each other again.

Soup Problems

This time I was in Grade 3. I had a friend, my seatmate again, and his name is Carl. I remember her and her sister but I forgot the name of his sister. Hmmm, he is a naughty boy again haha. I had my memories of my elementary days today, funny. ^^

Okay, hmmm I remember that we were in a fight because of the soup. I don't like soups and the teacher from our elementary days will not allow you to go home unless you don't eat soups which they are selling.

There's the point. Hmmm It's raining outside and we were not yet allowed to go home because the soup is not yet finished. I hate it. Haha. Then it's our row's turn to eat it. I remember that I was in third row and sitting on the isle, right side. (I like to sit on isles rather than the other seats becasue I feel unease with no space enough for me.) Hmmm, I'm on the isle like I said and I am the first one to get the soup. I got it and asked Carl of he could eat it for me becasue I don't like soups. He said he won't eat it and I got mad. (I'm too weird. I got easily mad haha but that's normal for me...Child fights...) There, I told him that we won't be friends if he won't eat it. By teh end, I won. He ate it for me. Haha.

Oh! Carl is a tall boy and not that fat or thin. A normal one. He is brown colored. Has a cat-like eyes. I remeber him becasue he's my friend since Grade 3 until Grade 6. I don't know where he is now. Haha.

My elementary friend...^^

Ballpen Problems

Ballpen.

While typing the word "ballpen", I saw a red underline which means that the spelling is wrong. Ballpen is a Filipino English for pen.

I had read a book which tells that we Filipino are weird for calling the pen a ballpen. Hmmm. Why does we use it by the way? I don't have a idea. Hehe. Oh! I have one. Maybe it's becasue some use their pens while in bed. I mean writing something while in bed. Haha. (like me when I was in high school)..Haha..Bizarre

Hmmm. That's not the real topic of this post. I remembered something this afternoon. I was in bed and reading a book and something flashed back from the past.

When I was in Grade 4, I had a seatmate and I hate him. He is a fat, black boy. His name is Toby and I still remember his name because he did something bad to me. I hate him but past is past so I already forgave him. Haha.

Ok. Hmm.. It was a clear afternoon in our room and we are having our English subject. Our teacher went at the door because someone was there to talk to her. Then, my classmate, Toby, talked to me and teased me. I got mad because of the bad words he told me. I told him that if he won't stop I will stab him using my ballpen. He didn't stop and he teased me continuously. I got my limits so I stabbed him with my blue ballpen..(when I was stull in Elementary I used blue Pilot Ballpen but in high school I already used the Fine-tech and G-tech point 3 Ballpen). He said that he will tell it to our teacher and he did.

My nice reputation as behaved girl was damaged because of that incident. I hated him for that. Our teacher rearranged our seats and she sent me to the last row in our room. At the left side where classmates that I don't know exists. Haha. Eventually those people are much better than the people I know in the first and second row. I belong to second row before that happened. I hate him for that because I was not able to recite like I used to. The teachers see me clearly and call me in front row because they can see me but in the last row, Uh! they can't because I was small and people in front are blocking me.

But then, I'm still sorry for that thing and I will never forget that. Haha. Nice stabbing. ^^

Do you believe?

I Believe…
That just because two people argue,doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue,doesn’t mean they do love each other.

I Believe…
That we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I Believe…
That no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe…
That true friendship continues to grow, even the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe….
That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe…
That it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe…
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe…
That you can keep going long after you think you can’t.

I Believe…
That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe…
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe…
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe…
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe…
That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe…
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe…
That sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe…
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I Believe…
That it isn’t always enough,to be forgiven by others.Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe…
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I Believe…
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,but, we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe…
That you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe…
Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I Believe…
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.

I Believe…
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I Believe…
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe…
The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything
we just make the most of everything.

“Some things are true whether you believe them or not. ” - City of Angels

Nice Message

Strangers at one point, good friends in time.Nobody knows how our world works. It's a matter of time when you truly appreciate person. a matter of fate: where the right people are at the right place and at the right time.Nobody understands how the universe conspires for us to meet the people we'll have or have communications with. But then, it just happens, you click and the story begins.

Blue Foundation

Wooshh..I'm better now...BTW, while surfing, I discovered a new band. I ove it already. The name of that band is Blue Foundation. They have good songs. Indie and alternative. Wossshhh..I love it...Nice drums and piano with violing and guitar..haha..everything..Music's good as well as the lyrics..

I found they're myspace and official account..Click on the links..^^

Wooshh
and
^^

I hope you will enjoy their music too..^^

Got in My nerves..Bad Girl

I am in a bad mood right now. Computer..my blog specifically and the songs in my playlist here in my files...are my excuses so that I will be alone. I mean escaping this family I have. Escaping from facing them which will make me burst again.

Why am I mad? It's simple...Because of these people...Aha!! I don't care if you think that I'm a bad girl but I really hate them. Now...Hmmm..I'm sorry for that...Yeah..so sorry...I hope you understand what I'm feeling right now..

My niece just got my drawing plates wet. I hate. I am working hard to draw and make my homework and she came in and my work is wet. Wet with water. I have to start all over again.

My head is aching. I haven't slept for days. My eyes are too tired and it's affecting my head.

My mom is the worst of all. Yeah she's worst. Everyday, I am mad because of the things she always say to me. Because of the things she blames me. I hate it and my life sucks. Why?

• First, she enrolled me to the school which I really do not like. I tried hard to cop[e up with it but still I'm not fond of it. It hurts my feelings thinking that I study at that school and all my dreams got washed up.

• Second, everytime it's raining she's always mad at me because I do not bring umbrella. How can I bring one when she won't buy me a nice umbrella.

• Third, at night when I am home..after those tiring days at school...after studying too hard, I don't have time to sleep well..She's mad at me for watching the tv, staying here in the computer...Yep..I know she should be mad but if you think at it...I'm too bored and tired of studying hard. Computer, watching few (specifically only 3 programs which takes 1 and half hour a day) programs at the television and listening to my preferred music on my player..makes me comfortable. That's my way of resting..shifting my mind to relax and not think about school...It's a thing I do so that I will be in a good condition and those are the things which makes her mad about me.

I don't understand why everything turned out to be so bad when I'm doing my best here...Maybe or rather not...really is a good one..Hmmm..God has plans for me. It's not my preference but it's the way He wants me to choose this way. I want to be alone while I'm still mad and crying rather than face them and hurt their feelings and do bad things. I would rather suffer alone right now than be a bad girl. Using my blog to express my feelings right now. Using this piece of site that will make me feel better.

Hmmm..while doing this, I am praying that God will calm me. That after this, I would be fine and I can start on my homework again. It's hard to do this things but I have to.

The one motivating me to study hard is to bring glory to God and for someone out there. For my God's gift. I'm not doing this for my family. My biological family which I ahte right now. I hope this pain and hatred will be gone soon so that I will be in a good mood again and a good person God wants me to be.

Everything slipped right now to the things I was not expecting. I am not surprised but I am thanking God for giving me my peace of mind and my peaceful environment for being alone here in my sister's room.
I'm such a bad girl right now...I'm sorry for being one but It's very hard. This pain...It's too much and I hate it...

Blue Foundation

Eyes On Fire

I’ll seek you out,
Flay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

I’m taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze

And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace

Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace

Peace and Pencil

Ah!..Tomorrow we will have an exam again and we will draw a portrait of our Mayor. Hmmm drawing animes is the only thing I can do but drawing real people...Oh no!!..I hope I can draw better...haha..^^

Peace?? What's up with peace for today?..Haha..Well, I have a free time. Hmmm..I can blog and blog and cyworld too..hehe..Omo!!..He is online now...I have homeworks to do..Although I have free time, I still have to do my homeworks and he has to do his...We two are busy...I hope someday we will not be busy enough and we can talk again..^^

Bad Mood, Bad Food

Omo! I had a bad day today. Why? I'll better not tell why. I might hurt someone out there. But I just hate our HRM 3 today. I did not enjoy it and I walked out from the laboratory. I hate it. I don't care. Hmm. I told the professor that I am not feeling well but in reality, I am in a bad mood. I went to ur room and there I had my quiet time. A peace talk with me only. Haha. Weird but I walked out to prevent something batd that will happen. If I stayed there, I might burst and hurt others by being a geek. Sorry for the word..^^...But hmmm I just suffered alone.

Haha!!..I'm such an idk...idk person...haha..^^...Too bad I did not bake this time..All because of these bad things..hmmp..

At last!

Haha. After how many days, I got the chance to talk to him again. Hmmm, I was waiting for him ever since and today is the day that he talked to me again.^^

I miss talking to him. I said that I was not allowed to talk to him by myself but I can't because I really miss him. Haha. I'm so happy and smiles are in my face again.^^

Although we only had a very short talk because of my report and he is also busy, I am still happy and thanking God for allowing him to talk to me. For the chance and the time..^^

Ah!..Everything is fine now. Haha. My sad face turned to a happy face with just a siimple talk and I'm very very happy...haha..^^

Enjoy Life..^^

I Miss You

Three words that I am feeling right now. Hmm, I really miss him. ^^. I miss talking to him but I can't allow myself to talk to him. I really can't. I'm not allowed by myself.

This morning in my English class, I did not listen to the S.T. because I know already her lessons and my mind is drifting about him.

This is a little bit weird. I am dreaming about him every night. This night, it's really strange. I dreamed about him. I will not tell the details but I will tell what is strange about it.

I avoided the people..(whom I know)..and went to a corner. That place was under the stairs. A bench was near me and slowly I saw him. His eyes are too sad. Maybe it's because of the thing I did in my dream. I looked at his eyes and he looked into mine. I saw his eyes like it was real. After looking at his eyes, he closed it and I stared at him while his eyes are closed. I closed mine too and when I opened it again, I was already falling from a bridge. Then, I woke up.

Every night, I was dreaming about him and sometimes I feel that it's true but then it's just a dream so I end up waking. Mostly tears are in my eyes and sometimes I find myself staring into blackness after waking up.

I wish I can see his eyes like that. I mean not that he is sad but I can stare at him closely like in my dream. I wish I can. I really wish.

There is really something about him..^^